So. I started High School yesterday. My day went pretty well. Almost... too well. Anyway, to most people, the day would have been amazing. But you must think from my perspective.
You see, I am shy, and quiet, and standoffish. (Don't get me wrong, I am a nice person). When around crowds of people I do not know and may judge me, I shut down.
By the way, my High School has 1,000 and more studens.
Scary, huh?
So, as you can see, I shut down in the hallways and classroom. Especially the classroom. I always feel like people are watching me. I. Am. Scared.
When I shut down, I don't look at anything or anyone and become extremely hard to talk to. In this state, if you talk to me my answers are nods, head shakes, and shrugs. There is no eye contact.
So look at High School from my perspective, and it sucks. It really does.
Since I am a Freshman, older High Schoolers call us "Fish."
So I am a fish.
What kind of fish?
A Clownfish.
Why a Clownfish?
Because Clownfish can live in and among the protection of the anemone without being hurt. The anemone being the Popular crowd, me being the Clownfish.
I am not popular, but the populars know and respect me. That's a relief.
I will end this message on a positive note.
I wasn't hazed.
And High School is an interesting place. You meet new people, are able to take new and fantastic classes, and everyday is different in some way.