There is no excuse for disappearing for a month or two. None. You guys are my (lovely wonderful fantastically weird) family, and I'm supposed to be in charge. When I said I was leaving in the summer, I did mean it. But I also meant it when I said I wanted to finish all my stories, get closure. You guys have been my life for the past four years and there is no way in heaven or hell I could just leave you without a goodbye or an entire freaking album devoted to my pain of basically chopping a limb off (you guys are my third leg now, how does that feel?).
And you all know me, I never admit I'm wrong. I mean, obviously because I'm always right. But what I did was a shitty, shitty thing. Even if it wasn't intentional, even if I love you guys and every other day was like 'after studying for four hours straight, I should get on!', that's no excuse. I took adminship because I thought I could handle it and I loved this place more than anything. I still do.
Of course, I let life get in the way. Life, curse it, is my primary reason for leaving. I have high-school, maintaining a 4.0, taking the Mock Trial team to nationals, tearing up the theatre stage with ma skillz. College. Writing a novel. Maybe getting involved with a boy. Getting on the track to become the first half-blind special agent in the FBI. The works. Naturally, that doesn't come without stress.
But that doesn't mean Red and Wetty should have to work themselves to death because I'm off doing God knows what (well, I know what too I guess). Rainy shouldn't have to postpone getting her well-deserved rights because the 'crat is off daydreaming. You guys shouldn't be posting blogs about 'Where's Arti?/General Wiki Crisis' that need tending to' because I'm...well, you get the idea.
This week is exam week. The most hellish, grueling week of life. To top it off, I have theatre rehearsals every day from 3-6 and then Mock Trial twice a week from 6:30 to 8. Exams all week. It isn't fun.
But then I get winter break. And I intend to be here every day, because that's the only way I can even possibly begin to make up for basically leaving my 85+ family alone for two months.
Please forgive me. I am so so sorry, and I wish I could say it won't happen again. But let's face the facts- it might. So I can say this: whenever I have the choice, I promise I will always choose you guys.
Love you all. <3