SmudgyHollz SmudgyHollz 8 November 2018

Update: Crisis (kind of) Resolved

In my last blog I documented the complete disaster of a situation I was in and how my life was rapidly falling apart. As promised, here's an update to tell you how I've fixed it to show you guys that things get better and it's not the end of the world when stuff doesn't go your way.

So... where to start.

Failing second year - yay I didn't get kicked out of university! Instead of giving up, I appealed my case and explained the circumstances that lead to me failing exams. I had to go to a scary meeting with some scary head of departments at my university, but it was only an hour of my life. They listened to my story and were happy to give me a second chance with practically no persuasion. So now I'm at uni part-time re-doing the exams I failed…

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SmudgyHollz SmudgyHollz 6 September 2018

Quarter Life Crisis

I guess it’s better to get your crisis over with early, right?

Hi again, it’s Smudge. I used to be a very active user here around 8 years ago. For those of you who don’t remember me (probably most) I was a very geeky teenager who lived in the middle-of-nowhere Scotland and spent most of my time hiding in my room writing about Warrior Cats and being antisocial.

After I left high school, life started to look really positive. I got into one of the top universities in the world to study Neuroscience. I could finally escape from my tiny town, get away from that claustrophobic community where everybody knew everything about everyone. I could recreate myself so I wouldn’t be known as the shy weird girl anymore. My eyes would be opened to the rest o…

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SmudgyHollz SmudgyHollz 3 April 2018

Moving in together?

Hey, Smudge is back!

I know I should probably leave this wiki since I don't really contribute much anymore, but I've been writing life updates here for so many years (I think 9? wow) that sometimes things just don't seem real until I share them with you.

So, what's 2nd year of uni been like?

A bit shit, to be perfectly honest.

It started off great; I threw myself into student life way more than I did in my 1st year. Lots more drinking, lots more socialising, lots more fun. I was even brave enough to apply for a volunteering role that, while being way out of my comfort zone, allowed me to meet lots of lovely people and have exciting new experiences that I probably never would have had otherwise. I also got a job at a bar in the city centre (som…

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SmudgyHollz SmudgyHollz 31 May 2017

Scrambled eggs and pesto

Hey again, it looks like these blogs are becoming a more regular occurrence!

So first year of uni is officially over and I survived! :D

Once again, life has not turned out as expected. I have a new flat that I'll get the keys in June buuuuut my friend decided she wants to move back home instead of live with me. Looks like 2017 is not my year.

The flat is pretty cool though. It's a top floor apartment with two bedrooms and really near the city centre.


It's in a bit of a sketchy area because it's surrounded by underpasses. Looks like I'll need to invest in a rape alarm. Hopefully I'm not attacked, will keep you updated though. :D

However, the main point of this post is to talk about blogs.

I've moved on from writing Warriors fanfic but I sti…

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SmudgyHollz SmudgyHollz 24 April 2017


2017 has taught me a lot about loss.

Firstly it was my boyfriend. This happened in January - so a great start to the year. He didn't die, just decided that he didn't want to be with me anymore. Then just a few weeks ago in March, my grandad sadly passed away.

Me and my boyfriend didn't exactly have a long relationship - only a couple of months. And in all honesty I'm not sure he even realises that what he did had such a huge effect on me. I myself am still shocked that him leaving me had such a big impact. He didn't treat me as well as he should have. And to be frank, apart from being Czech and speaking like 4 languages, he didn't have all that much going for him. He wasn't bad looking but if he was Scottish I probably would have found him a…

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