Ok, lately I've been feeling really scared. I am in someplace safe: my room, the shower, the library, etc. And then... I'll get so jittery, so afraid that if I get anymore afraid, I have a panic attack. My head will swerve from side to side and I get the feeling something or someone is watching me, but there's never anything there. This is scaring me really bad... and I don't usually scare easily.
And... I have a crush on this one guy. He's so sweet and funny and we'll laugh and talk on the bus. He just recently broke up with his girlfriend, one of my friends, and his new girlfriend is a snoot. She won't let me talk to him anymore and it hurts. Lately, he's been looking at me with scorn. I don't know what I did! He's one of my only friends... I can't lose him. Not to some shark wearing lipstick.
And one more thing, my math teacher bullies me. In front of the class too! My mom had looked at my report card but didn't sign it. My teacher asked where it was and I tried to explain. Then he said, "Well, is your mommy going to come in and serve detention for you?" Then he laughed. I'm serious. Earlier in the year he's called me an idiot and a liar. Arrgh!