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Reflection | Succeded by: Tourniquet |
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This is part of the Songfic Series.
Story[]
- Look at me,
- You may think you see who I really am,
- But you'll never know me
- "Flowerpetal! ShadowClan are attacking!"
- "StarClan, help me," I whispered...
- "What do we do?" A frantic queen begged me to answer.
- I didn't know. But I couldn't let the Clan know that. They needed me. After all, our leader, Yellowstar, was going to ThunderClan to ask of them a border proposistion.
- Everyday, it's as if I play a part
- Now I see, if I wear a mask,
- I can fool the world...
- Honestly, I was scared. The ShadowClan cats were dashing into our camp. We were WindClan. We had nowhere to hide. And that's what I wanted to do.
- But I cannot fool my heart...
- I watched in shock as I saw a big brute rip into the queen who had just asked me what to do. I didn't want to let this happen...but my fear was taking over. The tom ran off, leaving her body to bleed. I looked down at the pool of blood, and saw myself. Who was I?
- Who is that girl I see?
- Staring straight back at me,
- When will my reflection show
- Who I am inside?
- "Bluesayer!" I saw the queen's mate dash over. He looked like he would burst into tears at any moment. "Why did you just stand by and let him kill her?"
- I am now in a world where I
- Have to hide my heart
- And what I believe in
- "I...I thought she could..."
- "What? Take care of herself?" He sneered. "I hate you." He dashed off, looking for his love's murderer.
- I understood his pain. I had to stand up to my fear of fighting. StarClan, how did I ever become deputy? I'm a worthless piece of foxdung! Give me strength to fight this fear!
- But somehow, I will show the world
- What's inside my heart,
- And be loved for who I am...
- Suddenly, I was bowled over by an apprentice. An apprentice! Really? She ripped into my shoulder, hissing, then leaped away. Once again, the blood dripped slowly down my shoulder, and I saw my reflection again...
- Who is that girl I see?
- Staring straight back at me,
- Why is my reflection someone I don't know?
- One of the WindClan apprentice was staring. He saw. I had to be brave so he wouldn't suspect what I'm sure everyone already knew...
- Must I pretend that I'm someone else for all time?
- I jumped on a random cat's back. I didn't even know if it was from WindClan or not. I bit into it's neck, and it screeched. I jumped off in horror as I recognized the voice....
- Yellowstar. She must've gotten back from ThunderClan. Oh, StarClan...
- When will my reflection show who I am inside?
- The ShadowClan cats dashed off. What? Why did that have to happen? Just when I accidentally attacked the leader, the ShadowClan cats leave? What luck...
- I gasped. Yellowstar was....dead. No more lives, I remembered. Because that was her last one.
- There's a heart that must be
- Free to fly
- That burns with the need to know
- The reason why
- "What happened to Yellowstar?" A frightened kit yelled.
- "I saw," Bluesayer's mate growled. "Flowerpetal killed her."
- The medicine cat, Dawnwind, walked up to me cautiously.
- "Is this true, Flowerpetal?"
- Why must we all conceal
- What we think, how we feel?
- I hesitated.
- "Well?"
- "...Yes."
- Gasps went up from WindClan.
- "But I didn't mean to!" I added quickly. "I....I'm afraid to fight, you see, and...I felt I needed to be brave....so I attacked the nearest cat..."
- "Without thinking!" Bluesayer's mate snarled.
- Must there be a secret me
- I'm forced to hide?
- "It's not my fault," I snapped. "It was an accident."
- "There's no room for accidents in WindClan!" Bluesayer's mate snarled.
- I was scared again. Many cats murmured their agreement.
- I won't pretend that I'm
- Someone else,
- For all time
- "If you want me to leave so bad, then, fine. I know there isn't room for cowards here."
- "Or anywhere," A elder snapped.
- When will my reflection show
- Who I am inside?
- "Well, then, goodbye, my friends. See you in StarClan."
- "If you get there."
- With that remark in my head, I padded away. They thought I wasn't sad, sure. That's how it looked.
- When will my reflection show
- Who I am inside?
- But on the inside, I was.