User blog:BladeOfHope/Bladeykinz & Life &c

So.

I have successfully survived my first day of tenth grade. (For y'all who either live someplace that doesn't have the American grade system and/or can't or don't want to count, I am fifteen and will turn sixteen later this year.) All I can say is... holy crud, this is overwhelming.

I have none - NONE - of the teachers that I've had or encountered or remotely talked to in years past. (My new Latin teacher doesn't count, because she only knows me through my brother, who graduated this past year.) Like, half of the teachers I have are new, anyways. And it's really awkward having English in the classroom that USED to be my (second) Latin teacher's room.

But that's not even the worst of it.

So, yesterday (and the day before, but who cares?) the school was open so that people could come in to get their finalized schedules, books, lockers and combinations, etc. My mom and I walked into the office only to find out that some IDIOT had somehow managed to dump my registration from the system, meaning that we had to reconstruct my schedule from scratch, which took me out of the only class I'd have shared with one of my closest friends, though I bargained long and hard for the same lunch period that she's in, which means that my English teacher had to change to someone else, which I guess was okay 'cos otherwise I'd have had the same teacher for three classes a day, but still...

So, yeah, that was rather stressful.

In addition to that, I had something akin to an anxiety attack while camping a few days ago. I'm still feeling immensely depersonalized (look it up if you don't know what that is), and I feel like all the stuff inside my skull hasn't been functioning properly ever since. So, yeah, I'm pretty creepin' stressed out right now. (Like you couldn't already tell. Psh.) I spent the first half of today reuniting with friends and the second half wondering where my personality from last school year went and why there seemed to be a massive wall between me and all of the other people in my classes.

My class sizes, by the way, range from 25 (geometry) to, like... ten? (English.) It's been incredibly disorienting changing between them. I really don't like change, so the beginning of the school year is, like, the most stressful time of year for me anyways, anxiety attacks and potential personality problems aside.

Sigh...

So! On a brighter note. For those of you who are still reading this (gold star for surviving the account of my depressing recent life), I had an idea regarding the commenting contest, 'cos guess what? I have no idea what to comment on. I'll look at all of the recommended stories on Firey's blog (aside from Even So, of course, haha, y'all should look at it for me~ X3), but... that's not a whole lot.

And so, in order to allow me some time to get started writing up some comments in Word documents prior to the contest's beginning... if you have a story (that isn't already listed on Firey's blog) that you want me to read, link (Link! Don't just tell me its name! LINK!) it in the comments section of this blog, and I'll try to get around to reading it/commenting on it. Sometime. Maybe.

Bladeykinz out.

M y u  n  c  o  n  t  r o  l  l  a  b  l  e       p o  w  e  r        alone f l i e s o u t     w i t h o u t l e a v i n g m e . . .  02:19, August 13, 2015 (UTC)