Regrets

''Auroras first ever  Songfic. Rate in the comments!''

Song: When I was Your Man, by Bruno Mars

''Same bed but it feels just a little bit bigger now Our song on the radio but it don't sound the same When our friends talk about you, all it does is just tear me down 'Cause my heart breaks a little when I hear your name''

I look around the clearing. It looked the same..... clanmates lounging around, sharing prey, the deputy organizing patrols, apprentices gossiping in the corner....... except I feel empty inside. My heart grows hollow when I set my eye as on her. She was laughing along with another tom, I don't care to say his name. I remember how she used to laugh with me instead. My now-gone friends used to talk with him about her, to comfort me,  but it made me feel broken inside. All my friends just disappeard, one by one, till I didn't even recognize them as friends. I still remember. How she was so comforting, how she made me feel strong, even when my whole family died. She was so precious to me......but ironically, it was her preciousness that made her leave.

'' It all just sounds like oooooh… Mmm, too young, too dumb to realize That I should've bought you flowers And held your hand Should've gave you all my hours When I had the chance Take you to every party 'Cause all you wanted to do was dance Now my baby's dancing But she's dancing with another man ''

Like all breakups, it started with a problem. I was deputy before, chosen to serve my clan. However, I was not fit for the job. I became harrowed, lost in my duties, always working hard, and never paying much attention to her as much as I should have. Even when I did be with her, I tried to lavish as much love I could to her, but she took it as a sign of obsession. She didn't understand how much I needed her, or how much I loved her. Day after day, she put up with me, trying to tell herself that it would end, that I would snap out of it, and change my ways. It was when she finally realized how hopeless I was that she left my life. And she was right of how stupid I was, how selfish I was to her, and my ignorance, most of all. I regret it all, the shame washing down on me, as I realized I would never talk to her again.

'' My pride, my ego, my needs, and my selfish ways Caused a good strong woman like you to walk out my life Now I never, never get to clean up the mess I made, ohh… And it haunts me every time I close my eyes''

You don't know how much I was '' It all just sounds like oooooh… Mmm, too young, too dumb to realize That I should've bought you flowers And held your hand Should've gave you all my hours When I had the chance Take you to every party 'Cause all you wanted to do was dance Now my baby's dancing But she's dancing with another man

Although it hurts I'll be the first to say that I was wrong Oh, I know I'm probably much too late To try and apologize for my mistakes But I just want you to know

I hope he buys you flowers I hope he holds your hand Give you all his hours When he has the chance Take you to every party 'Cause I remember how much you loved to dance Do all the things I should have done When I was your man Do all the things I should have done When I was your man''