Wounds Beyond Measure

Wounds Beyond Measure

 By Foxey

 For Dogwood's contest

 Featuring Scars To Your Beautiful by Alessia Cara

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She just wants to be beautiful

She goes unnoticed, she knows no limits

I never knew how my heart could hurt so much. Emberkit told me she wishes she had a prettier littermate and went off to play with Rosefall's litter. I stood in the corner of the nursery, refusing to acknowledge anyone, not even Dappleleaf who asked me why I wasn't playing with the others.

I just thought. Why didn't Emberkit think I was pretty? I stared at my reflection and...began to see all the flaws. Sedgekit had a broader face, Lichenkit had longer hair. I was nothing to compare. So of course Emberkit ditched me. I casted a sideways glance at the kits and saw them playing moss-ball. I sighed and left the nursery, hoping no one would watch me - then grabbed a huge water-vole from the fresh-kill-pile and began gnawing it in the shade of the trees. I would change their minds, you'll see. Just you wait.

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I ate a total of 18 fishes each quarter-moon. "What have you been eating to get so big?" Dappleleaf asked.

"Fish!"

My prime goal was to get Sedgekit, Emberkit, and Lichenkit to notice me. I strutted by their eating spot, trying to look as if I didn't even notice them.

"Did you eat yet?" Emberkit asked.

Huh? Was she finally being concerned. "Nope," I turned my head slightly.

"Then why is your belly distended?" Sedgekit giggled. "Are you expecting kits?"

"No!" I snapped, crouching down.

"Mintkit the fatty! Minty the Fatty!" They cheered and I quickly ran to the nursery and stayed there for the next three days.

She craves attention, she praises an image

She prays to be sculpted by the sculptor