Sunflower

sunflower

one-shot songfic by stork

original artists are swae lee & post malone

enjoy, sunflowers <3

preface
usually, a sunflower is seen as loyalty.

the flowers don't back down to the environmental hazards that destroy others.

in some myths and legends, the flower was a symbol of a watching lover; one that'd stare at the sun.

some associate sunflowers with harvest and fortune.

to me, though, the sunflower in my life is my light.

sunflower
Ayy, ayy, ayy, ayy (Ooh)

Ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh (Ooh)

Ayy, ayy

Ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh

When we were young, Acornpaw was the light of my life. Everything seemed good with her and I - we were best friends, our parents got along well, life was good. Really good.

Then it happened.  ~

Needless to say, I keep it in check

She was all bad-bad, nevertheless (Yeah)

My brother Twigpaw was found dead beside a tree.

I'd known what was wrong with him - Twigpaw was smaller than me and Cedarpaw. Plus, he always wanted another tom around - all the kits, therefore all the apprentices, were she-cats when we were young.

The other she-cats would bully him, but Cedarpaw and I didn't; we liked our brother. He was kind and sweet and listened to tales spoken by our older members - he especially liked listening to Kestrelheart, who'd been all scarred up from years of fighting.

However, there came a day where Twigpaw confronted me.

"Starlingkit." He'd said the words as a kit; still young, but ever a smart one. "I wonder why Mother named you that. It sounds like a tom's name."

I'd never questioned my name before, just treated it as my own. "I don't think it sounds like that."

"You're the only one who I trust because of that name."  Callin' it quits now, baby, I'm a wreck (Wreck)

Crash at my place, baby, you're a wreck (Wreck)

Twigpaw saw me as something I'm not - a weird, twisted mix of a tom and a she-cat, someone meant to be a tom but who really wanted to be a she-cat. I knew there was nothing wrong with that - our own leader, Spiderstar, had decided that they'd stick with neutral pronouns - but Twigpaw thought it to be wrong.

Wrong was how it stayed. Despite him calling me a tom, Acornpaw didn't. She knew he was a bully to me - her theory was that he was just upset over what'd happened to him as a kit.

See, I felt bad about that, too. Especially because I knew that was the truth.  Needless to say, I'm keeping her in check

She was all bad-bad, nevertheless

When Twigpaw committed suicide, it both ended me and signified a beginning.

It was a beginning because it meant no more being called a tom; Acornpaw hated that for me. "Starlingpaw's a she-cat, and she always will be." But it was also an end; I'd lost a brother.  Callin' it quits now, baby, I'm a wreck

Crash at my place, baby, you're a wreck

Thinkin' in a bad way, losin' your grip

Screamin' at my face, baby, don't trip

Someone took a big L, don't know how that felt

Lookin' at you sideways, party on tilt

~

Ooh-ooh, some things you just can't refuse

She wanna ride me like a cruise

And I'm not try'na lose

~

Then you're left in the dust

Unless I stuck by ya

You're the sunflower

I think your love would be too much

Or you'll be left in the dust

Unless I stuck by ya

You're the sunflower

You're the sunflower

~

Every time I'm leavin' on ya (Ooh)

You don't make it easy, no (No, no)

Wish I could be there for ya (Ooh)

Give me a reason to (Oh)

Every time I'm walkin' out (Oh)

I can hear you tellin' me to turn around (Oh, oh)

Fightin' for my trust and you won't back down (No)

Even if we gotta risk it all right now, oh (Now)

I know you're scared of the unknown (-Known)

You don't wanna be alone (Alone)

I know I always come and go (And go)

But it's out of my control

~

And you'll be left in the dust

Unless I stuck by ya

You're the sunflower

I think your love would be too much

Or you'll be left in the dust

Unless I stuck by ya

You're the sunflower

You're the sunflower, yeah