User blog:Sparrowsong/Why must everyone hate me so much?

When I first came here, I was cheerful and bubbly and outgoing. Yes, that means that *gasp* the ice queen (me) once had a heart, as those of you who were on here when I was new will probably remember.

Now I have a pretty different personality. I'm now grumpy, emo, and have a tendency to lash out at people who offend me.

You see, that's not for no reason. The reason I'm like that is because, as those of you who are also on Percy Jackson Fanfiction Wiki should know, I'm emotionally disturbed and I can barely stand to hold it in anymore. I've been doing that for 8 years - yes, I was emotionally disturbed at the age of 5.

I've been bullied mercilessly since preschool, and it's left me with more scars than you can imagine and extreme shyness for fear of befriending someone and then having them turn on me (that's happened about 5 times). I fight with my parents a lot; my dad will say "Shut up, you little s**t, I hate you!" and then he'll hug me. As for my mom...you don't even want to know how stormy my relationship with my mom is. Luckily, my brother loves me...most of the time.

And now people are quitting this Wikia just because I warned them once.

I hate the way you people talk about me. I used to have a good reputation. People said "ask Sparrow, she'll help you," "Sparrow's really cheerful, her stories are great," and "yeah, I like Sparrowsong, she seems really nice."

Now, even when I try to be extra nice and a good admin, I hear "Sparrow is blind and mean," "I heard that Sparrow was quite rude to so-and-so," "Sparrow is very flamey and offensive," "Sparrow's stories aren't that good anymore," "Why does Sparrow have to be so rude?!" and "Sparrow's ruined my life, she's such a b**ch."

Honestly, people, what in StarClan's name is wrong with you?! You don't go around bullying admins! Especially not emotionally disturbed admins!

Yes, I know some of you are going to think I'm lying. But everything I said is true.

So, try to put yourself in my shoes. I'm disturbed, depressed, and bordering on bipolar. No wonder a song like Viva La Gloria (Little Girl) is my theme song.

Please, people, will you at least try to be a little nicer to me?

-Song