User blog:Sandwich989/Helloo

Hey, me here.

It's been over a year now probably since I was last active, so excuse me if I break any new rules about blogs, feel free to delete this if it does go against the rules haha.

Though I haven't made a blog post since 2012...oh god I was looking back at my blogs. Basically it was Olympics. Olympics. Olympics. Olympics. Running. Varsity. Olympics.

It's so embarrassing actually, looking back on them. I laugh because of how...spastic I was about it. I was just so obsessed with going to the Olympics at that time, because I was remarkably able to go from slow af from April 2012 to fast af top 5 runner by August of that year. I was so motivated and dedicated I literally thought about nothing except "There is no way I'm not going to get a gold medal at Rio 2016". Then I just talked about it non stop on here and even made that Opening Ceremony story...just, whyyyy omg. But yeah, I thought that there was nothing stopping me and if I made it my life then it'd be bound to happen.

Well... life happens. I kept that dream for quiet a while actually. It wasn't til about September of 2013 that I lost focus permanently. I don't know if that story about my life is age appropriate for a lot of the users on here lol. But quick summary: I become depressed for various stupid reasons --> I get involved romantically with my best friend--> Turns out he just used me for that --> even more clinically depressed (this is september 2013), to the point of not wanting to be alive --> Because of that, running turns to shit, I become slow --> by track season, I was for the most part back to my old (running self) but at this point wouldn't be fast enough in time to run in college--> there goes my dream of getting any change of running in the olympics.

So, yeah there's that. It's kind of sad really, I let a stupid stupid stuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuupid boy and an even stupider situation get in the way of my dreams. And I don't wanna sound conceited, but I still do think my dreams were without a doubt plausible and could've actually happened. At my rate of progress at that time, if I had just stayed focused, I could've made it big and at the very least made it to the Olympic trials. In all honestly every time I think back to the person who was obsessed and focused on making it to the Olympics I get sad/nostalgic, because I was naively happy about the Olympics, I had so much fun thinking about going and all the songs I'd listen to motivate me give me the best memories of dedication and hardwork. I had so much enthusiasm for it, I was so hopeful.

But no. I was dumb. and foolish. And kajshguaohiaohjauoak.

Just word of advice to all you young people out there. A stupid high school relationship IS NEVER AS IMPORTANT AS YOUR DREAMS! I don't care if this is the only best friend you've ever had and you never met anyone like him, all that bs....no, it's not important. I let an irrelevant peice of sh*t ruin my dreams because I thought he was my everything, when it turns out he's just another random person you meet in high school and you never talk to after it ends. So, if any of you have dreams, and there's someone in your life that wants to change that/ if you can feel yourself losing focus on your dreams because of that person, then CUT THEM OFF! Be someone, not someone else's.

Also that's just a huuuge reason why I never came back to edit basically. If my life was focused, I probably couldve finished the LoB series by now haha. Well, there's still time for that!

So yeah, when did this turn into my life story? Haha wow, that's lame. I just felt like I haven't been here in so long I feel like a new user on here! Even though I'm probably the oldest with the most memories of users/drama from the past. Lol.

So what's been going on? What's been happening to this wiki since, idk about August 2012? As always (even back then!) I'm extremely out of the loop. What users came and went? Which users are cool as hell? What happens in that Bramblestar super edition? I heard Icecloud/Toadstep/other "background" characters die? That sucks...i can't remember specifically but that's so sad! These are the characters I grew up with, I don't care that they were background characters, I appreciated them all the same. And Dustpelt...:( and Sorreltail. Smh, Dustpelt is an original character! I know that he's old and his whole family is dead, but still. I feel like I can relate to Sandstorm and Graystripe. They were super young characters since the beginning of the series, and now they're old. And gray. With nothing but memories of the past to entertain them. Just like me on this site :P haha

Also, the Hunger Games basically became the warriors for my late teenage years. I love it soo much. Actually on my old laptop I was writing a story about it. I made it all the way to like 12,000 words before my laptop effing died on itself forever. Smh, it's okay though that story was bland as hell, I needed to write a new one anyways. So I wonder how a warriors/hunger games type of thing would go? Maybe three cats from each clan put into an arena like that? Idk, just thoughts. I think I should definitely finish LoB first before I have these insane thoughts about other fanfics!

So yeah, just old Sammy here just passing along, saying hi :)