What Hurts The Most ~ Avalanchepaw's Loss

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''Avalanchepaw blames herself for the loss of her crush, Stormpaw and her brother, Dogpaw. Every night, she sees Stormpaw in her dreams and whenever she visits StarClan. See her pain in this song.''

This is my first Songfic so sorry if there are any mistakes.

"Stormpaw," I scream. I was helpless as Shadowstrike savagely fought Stormpaw and my older brother, Dogpaw. Shadowstrike attacked me and my "identical" brother, Bravepaw. Bravepaw lost the fight to him. He survived, but he blacked out. I lost due to not being able to see. I ended up blacking out as well...

The next day, Fireheart tells me that Stormpaw is dead and I can't believe it. I fell asleep night thinking about him and struggling to keep my tears in. 'Stormpaw... I'm so sorry...'

Trying to keep the fact that his death was my fault, I switched from being a warrior to being a medicine cat. I then I somehow see Stormpaw in StarClan, wishing he hadn't died....

I can take the rain

Of the of this empty house, 

That don't bother me

I can take few tears now and then and just let them out

"Stormpaw..." My voice gets stuck in my throat as I fight back tears. I felt his tail rest on my shoulder.

"I know. I'm wishing that, too." Stormpaw whispers in my ear.

''I'm not afraid to cry. ''

Every once in a while 

Even though goin' on with 

You gone still upsets me

I look up at his pale blue eyes. "No, it's my fault," I felt the tears fall off my face.

He looks into mine. "No, it was my time to die. It was my destiny."

I then felt my sorrow shake my shoulders as I wake up blind once again.

There are days 

Every now and again I pretend I'm 

Okay but that's not what gets me 

Stormpaw don't... don't leave me! I wail silently to the sky.

What hurts the most, was 

Being so close

And having so much to say

And watching you walk away

I'll always be with you, Avalanchepaw. Stormpaw whispers in my ear.

Never knowing, what could have been

And not seeing that love in you

Is what I was trying to do

'I don't care. I just... want you by my side...'

It's hard to deal with the pain

Of losing you everywhere I go

But I'm do it

I close my eyes for the night and see Stormpaw with a pretty StarClan she-cat. My heart stopped for a moment.

It's hard to force that smile when I 

See our old friends and I'm alone

I lie heartsick in my nest as my friends try to comfort me.

Still harder gettin' up

Gettin' dress, livin' with this regret 

 But I know I could do it over 

I see Stormpaw the following night.

"I thought you loved me," I growl at him, sliding out my claws.

I would trade, give away all

The words that I saved in my

heart that I  left unspoken

"I do love you, Avalanchepaw," Stormpaw meowed, shaking his head.

"Then, who was she?!" I snarl back at him.

What hurts the most, was

Being so close

And having so much to say

And watching you walk away

"Who?" Stormpaw asked, puzzled.

"That she-cat I saw you the other day with?!"

Never knowing, what could have 

Been

And not seeing that love in you

Is what I been trying to do

Stormpaw shook his head and rests his tail on my shoulders.

"That was my mother, Willowleaf." Stormpaw meows.

That moment I realized that grief had over took me.