User blog comment:BladeOfHope/mumbles quietly to self/@comment-17759525-20160402021651

something of an update here for anyone who cares, mumble, mumble...

The worst part of all this is... that I still really believe in all the worlds I've created here... like, I'd love to keep going on Undefeated with all my precious little cats, and Time Runner with my huge plans for their convoluted future, and Even So with its huge and hard-to-keep-track-of community and four main characters who already have their own full-fledged personalities and such... but... it's like...

(ellipses everywhere. I'll stop maybe )

...it's like, I can imagine it all so clearly in my head, and then when I set fingertip to keyboard (b/c pen to paper is too difficult), I can't describe it. At all. And when I try, I feel like I can't justify the images in my head. And I could just give away the entire plot in telling-not-showing bulky rambling paragraphs, but that wouldn't be fun - for anyone.

I have problems irl. Yeah, shocker, right? (If you hadn't realized that already, you really have no business reading this.) I'm stressed and going on a roller coaster (one that is NOT CONTROLLED BY HORMONES - the couple of times I tried to vaguely reference my problems, I got shut down as "oh, you're just a teenage girl, you'll get over it". No. It's not that simple. So don't give me that.) and I can't explain anything and it's just...

heh... I'll stop now...