User blog:DogwoodFlowers/Um Well It's Rough

Progress is probably gonna slow down a lot for all my works...

My grandpa's dying. As of now, he has about two more days of life if we're lucky. It's cruel for my grandma- her mom is in Vietnam, dying too, and if she goes to Vietnam she'll kick herself for not seeing her husband before he dies; if she stays, she'll kick herself for not seeing her mom before she dies. And for me, I'm just really, really disappointed in myself because I never got close to my grandpa. American and Vietnamese cultures differ so much that I never really understood when he was showing me that he loved me because it always sounded like he was yelling. He was always demanding stuff of my grandma, and I just wasn't happy with it even though that's the proper way to do things in Vietnam. There's also the language barrier because I can speak just enough Vietnamese to get through the house.

It's funny how, when he's on the brink of death, I can just forgive all these things and feel so deeply regretful for ever being so upset about it, and guilty for not crying as much as I feel I should have.

Then there's work. I signed up for a seminar, but my parents think I'll appreciate it more if I'm the one paying for it. So I have to go to the family supermarket 5-6 days a week for 12 hours at most and babysit my cousins in between. On those babysitting days, since they don't need me to do much, I guess I might have time to write, but if I need to watch even more cousins, then I have to keep them from screaming and throwing ten pound balls at each other's heads (which did happen once) or ripping the legs off of a toy ducky (which happened twice). Plus, my dad is having me handle some of his real estate and pdf-converting stuff, which he has tons of.

I'll try to put out more chapters, but my summer is pretty tight, and I just need to sort things out in my life. Darn...I was hoping to finish Ruined this summer and start Boba Vs. Starbucks. I might have time, who knows, but it doesn't look that way right now.