User blog:LyricsThatSing/December 2016 Life Update

You probably know what had happened.

LET'S JUST SKIP THAT PART

Let's start on... Uh.... This week.

Well, skip the gruesome details of what had happened, because we'll skip that part and I'm so grateful that I'm alive. Tomorrow I'd probably be like 'I HATE MY LIFE' but at this very moment I'm writing this, I am really grateful. I feel blessed that I survived.

So, yesterday, it was the first day after... my release, and I was at school. Most people didn't know what had happened, but they probably heard that something bad had happened to me, so the bullies didn't really touch me, and most people were nice to me. Most.

Okay, so weirdly, this is right: 'To people who are battling mental illnesses: Don't think that no one loves you- one day, you'll find yourself holding hands and falling in love with the one who spent their time to care for you.'

If you didn't know already, I have a lover called George, which is a dare date. Well, before you think that 'DID LYRIX TURN STRAIGHT OR BI OR SOMETHING', George is agender.

Okay. So the dare is gonna end on Saturday. However, now, we're dating for real, and in like the most low-key way ever. Why, you ask? They cared, and they loved. And I hope I put enough time and effort for caring. I don't know for sure, but I know that we care for each other. That's mostly what matters. And they asked me a question, that left me thinking even if I answered: 'Do you feel self-conscious of being gay openly in public?'

The point is, I'm always self-conscious, so I pounted that out. But then, I also felt very... scared that my parents would find out. I'm not prepared to face anyone's judgement yet, and if I get disclosed, I fear that the while grade, the teachers will judge me. I'm scared. I'm in a Catholic school, which is not great when you're gay, trust me.

Out of 35 people, 20 are homophobes, which is just scary, as they will most likely slit my throat when they see me being gay.

Unless if George punches them.

Yeah, my life is pretty boring, so this is so short, but who cares

Anyways, have an early Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year!

(P.S. My Chinese Teacher spelled 'Merry' as 'Marry' lol)

Falling, falling,     and I'm crying, crying     †    And I love, love you