My Immortal (Songfic)

{ Hello! This is another Songfic written by Jclay251/Me. This is about one of my charrie's Flowerstar, who had a bunch of sadness ( Or not XD) in her life. If someone already did this song, I'm sorry. This is based off of a RP I was on where I was leader, so Asylumfall and Asylumfrost belong to Asylum/Asylumfall, Flameclaw and Firestorm belong to Waterpelt, Goldenspirit belongs to Goldenstar/Red, Leafsong belongs to Feathertail, and Flowerstar, Ashwhisker, and Redclaw belong to me. The italics are Flowerstar's view, and the plain words are the song lyrics. Enjoy! :D}

I'm so tired of being here,

''I sighed. I felt like stabbing my not-so sharp claws into my throat. My life was completely ruinued now - I had NOTHING to look foward to.''

Suppressed by all my childish fears

''I was always scared of dying. ALWAYS. I always looked forward to a mate to protect me, and love me. I had a chance, but.... I can't believe.... his gone.... just because of that walk....''

And if you have to leave, I wish that you would just leave

Flameclaw's spirit still is here, standing right beside me along with my mommy, daddy, and Goldenspirit. StarClan, why did you do this to me...? Why? Why? Why?

Your presence still lingers here and it won't leave me alone

''Goldenspirit... I remember her resting on my back as we padded back from the new place I found. She was still a kit, energetic...happy.... I ALWAYS knew she was going to be my apprentice. Yes...she might have gone a little insane as an apprentice.... tried to murder my son..... But she was a great warrior... She's still deep in my heart...''

These wounds won't seem to heal, this pain is just too real

''Every day I wake up, the nest beside me... empty. Just like my soul right now. Empty and sorrowful. I feel like I'm hitting a rock on my head... Again and again...''

There's just too much that time cannot erase

''Me and Flameclaw.... Sitting by the river under the star.... It kills me to go there.... Where he gave me that white rose...''

When you cried, I'd wipe away all of your tears

*UNFINISHED*

When you'd scream, I'd fight away all of your fears And I held your hand through all of these years But you still have all of me

You used to captivate me by your resonating light Now, I'm bound by the life you left behind Your face it haunts my once pleasant dreams Your voice it chased away all the sanity in me

These wounds won't seem to heal, this pain is just too real There's just too much that time cannot erase

When you cried, I'd wipe away all of your tears When you'd scream, I'd fight away all of your fears And I held your hand through all of these years But you still have all of me

I've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone But though you're still with me, I've been alone all along

When you cried, I'd wipe away all of your tears When you'd scream, I'd fight away all of your fears And I held your hand through all of these years But you still have all of me, me, me