Flecks of Ash

First poem~ It's one of my many free-verses, although this is the first one that's been published. Some of the verses might rhyme though...... and this is going to be pretty long.

That fire-red pelt,

Those gorgeous green eyes.

That bushy tail of hers

That went with the tiger.

I couldn't see why she wouldn't love me,

I treated her just as fair.

At least my father didn't kill every cat,

Unlike some cat that I know of here.

I remember those days before,

When we frolicked and danced and played.

When we hunted and leapt throughout the woods,

Until night came with rest.

And then brambles came in,

One of my former friends.

He batted his amber eyes at her,

And took her from me without a glance.

I waited for half a moon,

Until the hawk came in with a promise.

Just one way to move his brother,

And I could have my revenge.

So we set the trap

With the stick and twine.

Where the fire would jump,

And struggle, and die.

Bramble was far to loyal,

He killed the hawk and set fire free.

I screamed in fury, in rage, in silence,

As the fire praised the bramble.

They had kits, the fire and the tiger,

The holly, the lion, and the jay.

Proof of how it was going to be,

Before it started with me.

I watched them through narrowed eyes,

I watched them as I was stuck with the lion.

I watched them as they became

The leaf, the blaze, and the feather.

Then came that night with the flashes of light,

Where the three were trapped with fire.

There was a branch that the fire used,

And with that I took a chance and ran.

Lightning flashed and thunder screamed,

As I raced for the hollow and so it seemed.

I would have my revenge, on the fire,

Until she told me the secret.

The holly, the lion, and the jay.

They weren't hers, nor the tiger's.

Another one, another cat,

That none the clans knew of.

I smiled with glee,

With my thoughts complete.

I warned them.

'''I'll do it. I will.'''

And then as the moon went by, 

The holly spoke to me, begging.

The jay warned me in my sleep.

And the lion confronted me.

I held firm, 

But slowly it rotted.

Was I really willing to do this?

To the fire I once loved?

No. I couldn't.

I wouldn't.

It would be too much for them to bear.

I'll keep quiet instead.

I was too bold.

Too firm, too smug.

Had I thought clearly,

Maybe none of this would've been done.

There was a mouse there, I swear it.

And I picked up one paw.

There was a flash of black,

And I turned to see the holly.

She held fast to me,

And I struggled, I did.

She drove her teeth into my neck,

And watched as I floated down, down the stream.

I jerked my head up,

And saw a white path in front of me.

''I followed it. Where else could I go?''

Until I saw the brindle.

She scolded me for my actions,

For my thoughts and my sins.

She explained that StarClan had understood,

And had opened the gates for me.

I watched as the holly broke her borders,

Spilling the secrets to every cat.

And I knew, just from watching,

I knew I could never tell.