User blog:LyricsThatSing/can someone wake me up from this nightmare

i just realized something: on saturday i'm going to meet the kindergarten bully leader who is responsible for half of my mental disorders

we have the same competition, same time, same date, same venue, if i'm sitting next to her i'd rather burn and die

i don't understand why everyone adores her? they just go 'oooooh it's her let's go get an autograph and leave lyrix in a ditch even if she is our close friend' (luckily we aren't in the same school anymore but we still meet annually and i don't know how can people ignore her cold heart which is only super sensitive to her pain and numb to others)

once she wrote 'cicely is fat and stupid. don't be friends with her' on slips of paper when we were having a playdate lunch and someone accidentally passed it to me, and i didn't tell anyone i just passed it to the person next to me as if nothing happened, then she stared at me like 'omg she isn't reacting she doesn't know how to read what an idiot!!!' that was when we were about 5.

yeah, she was that hurtful.

she then proceeded to whisper in everyone's ear saying 'don't play with her because she is an idiot'

the most pathetic part is she was the only one i could rely on because i didn't have any friends

even a bunch of my best friends betrayed me in these 6 years

can i even trust anyone

obviously the kindergarten bully is trying to make it up to me now that she sees my english is like 1000000% better than hers, because she doesn't know what does 'kind' mean, and isn't that obvious

i don't have anyone to talk to about this, except for george, because they know how does it feel like, and they aren't avaliable at all, so i really need help

can someone literally wake me up from this hellhole

Falling, falling,     and I'm crying, crying     †    And I love, love you