User blog:LyricsThatSing/i guess it's back to the span of depression again

i really don't have a reason to hate myself.

before yesterday, i had a 0.000001% of a chance that i would get to the same school as george. at least that's still a chance. well, thanks, hkuga, because you're the one causing my new span of depression this time.

i already made the decision that i would never, ever try to take my own life last year, so i could put that aside.

tbh, i put my hopes up too high. somewhere inside of me, i knew that would happen. but i still prayed that they would go to the school i'm going to. well, at last, my horrible luck is back at me again.

last night, i slept for 3 hours. insomnia is back at me again.

all i want to do is sleep, but i couldn't.

it feels so much more painful to be alive now.

i have a black dog, and its name is depression.

The truth is everybody is     going to hurt you,     you just have to    find someone  worth suffering for