About a Girl

A RaggedXYellow Songfic

OA is The Academy Is...

A local, now broken-up, band.

POV Raggedpelt/Raggedstar

About a Girl
One song...about a girl

I spotted the pale gray she-cat. She was small, still an apprentice, and I was a warrior.

My name was Raggedpelt.

Can't breathe when I'm around her

"I think you need a poultice on that," she advised, and I gave a nervous, giddy smile. She purred, flicked my cheek with her tail, and stalked away.

I released the breath I didn't know I was holding.

I'll wait here everyday

"Yellowpaw! Raggedpelt's hurt himself....again."

Sagewhisker's amused and somewhat impatient mew jolted me from my trance outside the medicine den. I limped inside, faking a sprained paw. This was my fifth time in the den in the past quarter moon.

In case she'll scratch the surface

"Here you go," she said smoothly, wrapping the leaf around my paw. "Just leave it be and stay off of it for a while. You should be good."

All I ever dreamed was having a conversation with her...

Not about herbs.

She'll never notice

She'll never notice me, she'll never realize that her medicine den is my more frequent haunt than the training hollow.

I am not in love

"She's a medicine cat!" I told myself again and again as I lay, close to sleep, in the warriors' den. "We can't be together. I'd be breaking the warrior code."

This is not my heart

"We shouldn't be together," I whispered. Even in my mind, even though I knew she didn't love me, her face was hurt, her yellow eyes dull with newfound grief.

I am not gonna waste these words

I shouldn't even be talking to her! That will just increase my desire...my wishes....I should leave her alone. I shouldn't waste my thoughts.

About a girl

I shouldn't even be thinking about such an unattainable...beautiful...she-cat.

Last night, I knew what to say

The words were already on the tip of my tongue...but then she told me she was expecting my kits. I couldn't tell her then!

But you weren't there to hear it

She wouldn't have listened anyway, I told myself, fiesty little she-cat that she is.

These lines...so well rehearsed

"Yellowfang," I whispered to myself. "We can't be together."

Tonge-tied and overloaded

"Y-Yellowfang, I--I mean, we-uh, we c-can't...b-be tomorr-I mean..."

You'll never notice

"Oh, Raggedpelt. Tongue-tied as always," Yellowfang purred, winding around me. I gave a weak grin.

I am not in love

"This can't happen!" I told myself fiercely.

This is not my heart

"We can't be together!" My mind was spinning....kits....she was having mine....what would I tell the Clan?

I am not gonna waste these words

I'm never going to tell her, I reminded myself, on those nights when I was doubtful about my abilities to tell her that we could never happen...that I would always have to deny my kits were hers.

About a girl

I shouldn't even be thinking about her! My Clan is what is important.

I am not in love

I shouldn't be in love!

This is not your song

I have to remind myself that I have no one to confide in - she's my medicine cat, I couldn't tell her, and my deputy...Foxheart just wouldn't understand.

This is my problem.

I am not gonna waste these words

There's nothing to say to her. I have nothing...nothing to waste....and everything to lose.

About a girl

Problems that should never have happened.

That should never be happening.

To be loved, to be loved, what more could you ask for?

After our kit is born...what more could I ask for? He's perfect.

To be loved, to be loved, everyone wants

He would - could - be every mother's dream. Everyone wants a kit, a son, a daughter...and not everyone gets them. Yellowfang was the medicine cat in a million that got one.

To be loved, to be loved, what more could you ask for?

With Lizardstripe as a mother? Ick. I would rather take little Brokenkit in as my own.

To be loved, to be loved, everyone...

He could be anyone's kit now.

I am not in love, this is not my heart

Nothing should have happened!

I am not going to waste these words

But I can't say anything...it's too late, and she won't listen.

I am not in love, this is not my heart

None of this!

I am not going to waste these words...

But it has happened.

About a girl

It was bound to happen.