User blog:Forestpaw13/Sad

I have more problems now. Grr.

Middle school just ended for me. I loved middle school, and everything about it. So right now I'm crying. I got notes from all my teachers saying how wonderful I was and blah blah blah.

So now I'm on summer break, with most of the rest of y'all. Sorry if you're not, I don't mean to brag.  Actually, I HATE summer and everything about it.  With school, you can just go to one place and you know that all of your friends are going to be there. No hassle. With school, you can learn. I love learning. It's fun. I enjoy it.

I use school as my wall.

Now... all this crap about my thyroid is coming back to bite me in the stupid butt. I have a pre-op July 6th (don't ask me what it is. I have no idea). Then I go to Mexico for a week- where I must stay in PERFECT health. PER.FECT. Then, on July 22nd, I'll be... er... gone for a bit.

So I won't be on much throughout July and some of August. It's not my fault.

Oh, yeah. On August 25th, high school starts. (Jeez. I'm crying really hard.) I have to deal with a person that likes me... who REALLY isn't someone I'm interested in. I mean, I wouldn't even THINK of liking them. If you get my vibe, you can corner me on the IRC one day. New classes. New teachers (AGH). New lockers. New people (I'll stick with the old people, thankyouverymuch). And you know what? I'm not looking forward to ANY of it. Okay, so what I'm in all honor's classes? So what I'm "outgoing"? So what I'm smart and "capable"? The whole time, I'll be wishing I could go back to middle school, where I belong. It's dog-eat-dog now. And I definitely don't want to be eaten. And I don't want to eat anyone, for that matter. Dog is gross.

Is there a bright side to this? Not sure. I'm negative, yeah, but I've been called "realistic".