Reflection

This is part of the Songfic Series.

Story

 * Look at me,
 * You may think you see who I really am,
 * But you'll never know me


 * "Flowerpetal! ShadowClan are attacking!"
 * "StarClan, help me," I whispered...
 * "What do we do?" A frantic queen begged me to answer.
 * I didn't know. But I couldn't let the Clan know that. They needed me. After all, our leader, Yellowstar, was going to ThunderClan to ask of them a border proposistion.


 * Everyday, it's as if I play a part
 * Now I see, if I wear a mask,
 * I can fool the world...


 * Honestly, I was scared. The ShadowClan cats were dashing into our camp. We were WindClan. We had nowhere to hide. And that's what I wanted to do.


 * But I cannot fool my heart...


 * I watched in shock as I saw a big brute rip into the queen who had just asked me what to do. I didn't want to let this happen...but my fear was taking over. The tom ran off, leaving her body to bleed. I looked down at the pool of blood, and saw myself. Who was I?


 * Who is that girl I see?
 * Staring straight back at me,
 * When will my reflection show
 * Who I am inside?


 * "Bluesayer!" I saw the queen's mate dash over. He looked like he would burst into tears at any moment. "Why did you just stand by and let him kill her?"


 * I am now in a world where I
 * Have to hide my heart
 * And what I believe in


 * "I...I thought she could..."
 * "What? Take care of herself?" He sneered. "I hate you." He dashed off, looking for his love's murderer.
 * I understood his pain. I had to stand up to my fear of fighting. StarClan, how did I ever become deputy? I'm a worthless piece of foxdung! Give me strength to fight this fear!


 * But somehow, I will show the world
 * What's inside my heart,
 * And be loved for who I am...


 * Suddenly, I was bowled over by an apprentice. An apprentice! Really? She ripped into my shoulder, hissing, then leaped away. Once again, the blood dripped slowly down my shoulder, and I saw my reflection again...


 * Who is that girl I see?
 * Staring straight back at me,
 * Why is my reflection someone I don't know?


 * One of the WindClan apprentice was staring. He saw. I had to be brave so he wouldn't suspect what I'm sure everyone already knew...


 * Must I pretend that I'm someone else for all time?


 * I jumped on a random cat's back. I didn't even know if it was from WindClan or not. I bit into it's neck, and it screeched. I jumped off in horror as I recognized the voice....
 * Yellowstar. She must've gotten back from ThunderClan. Oh, StarClan...


 * When will my reflection show who I am inside?


 * The ShadowClan cats dashed off. What? Why did that have to happen? Just when I accidentally attacked the leader, the ShadowClan cats leave? What luck...
 * I gasped. Yellowstar was....dead. No more lives, I remembered. Because that was her last one.


 * There's a heart that must be
 * Free to fly
 * That burns with the need to know
 * The reason why


 * "What happened to Yellowstar?" A frightened kit yelled.
 * "I saw," Bluesayer's mate growled. "Flowerpetal killed her."
 * The medicine cat, Dawnwind, walked up to me cautiously.
 * "Is this true, Flowerpetal?"


 * Why must we all conceal
 * What we think, how we feel?


 * I hesitated.
 * "Well?"
 * "...Yes."
 * Gasps went up from WindClan.
 * "But I didn't mean to!" I added quickly. "I....I'm afraid to fight, you see, and...I felt I needed to be brave....so I attacked the nearest cat..."
 * "Without thinking!" Bluesayer's mate snarled.


 * Must there be a secret me
 * I'm forced to hide?


 * "It's not my fault," I snapped. "It was an accident."
 * "There's no room for accidents in WindClan!" Bluesayer's mate snarled.
 * I was scared again. Many cats murmured their agreement.


 * I won't pretend that I'm
 * Someone else,
 * For all time


 * "If you want me to leave so bad, then, fine. I know there isn't room for cowards here."
 * "Or anywhere," A elder snapped.


 * When will my reflection show
 * Who I am inside?


 * "Well, then, goodbye, my friends. See you in StarClan."
 * "If you get there."
 * With that remark in my hide, I padded away. They thought I wasn't sad, sure. That's how it looked.
 * But on the inside, I was.


 * When will my reflection show
 * Who I am inside?