User blog comment:SmudgyHollz/Loss/@comment-24143898-20170424051454

some bits of this I can relate to. both of my grandfathers have passed away (one two years ago, the other two months ago) and those times were upsetting. but yeah, after they're gone and you visit you expect them to be there, and when they're not it's a bit like "oh yeah, they've gone" and it is sad. it also sounds like you had a good relationship with your grandfather (which is cool, considering I never really had a super-strong relationship with either of mine :c), and yeah, it's a good thing that he's inspired you - it's great to have people like that in your life who have spurred you on to do good things.

as for the other situation with your ex-boyfriend, i'm sure you'd find someone eventually. I don't know what it feels like to break up with someone, however I do know the feeling of being in love with someone (yyyyep) and you're most definitely correct when you say that when you fall in love, you do end up falling incredibly hard. so yeah, I can totally see how you'd be hurt in that situation from my experiences.

But yeah, life will become better, Smudge, just wait and see! there are lows and highs in life - and after all, it was never made to be easy. Stay strong, and everything will improve C: