Backwards

A songfic by Rainy

OA is Matthias Frederics(MATTHIAS)

Dedication:

To Robo, because this is now officially our song





Backwards
Backwards, forwards

I'm exploring the borders

Of everything I want

Everything I need

Lethal doses of my own emotions

Seep into my dreams

And paralyze me

I pick myself up off the ground

I keep telling myself 

"No, I'm not backing down!"

I keep telling myself

The best is still yet to come

I keep telling myself

It's darkest before the dawn...

I'm going backwards

And yet I'm made to believe

I'm moving forwards

And I'm chasing my dreams

But I'll be

Just who I wanna be

Without you controlling...

controlling me

Toxic thoughts can make me easily drop this

But I won't shift my step,

So there's nothing to regret

I'm broken and coping, with this broken hoping

I kept blaming them

When the doubt came from within

No more ugly white lies

That I keep telling myself

This time I'm gonna try

I'm not just telling myself

Best is still yet to come

I keep telling myself

It's darkest before the dawn...

I'm going backwards

And yet I'm made to believe

I'm moving forwards

And I'm chasing my dreams

But I'll be

Just who I wanna be

Without you controlling...

controlling me

I will be seen and be heard

And they will hang on my every word

I will break free from the chains

And beat anything you throw in my way

I will be seen and be heard

And they will hang on my every word

I will break free from the chains

And beat anything you throw in my way