Bleeding Love

Part of the Songfix Series.

'''Warning: This contains spoilers for both Long Shadows and Sunrise. Read at your own risk.'''


 * Closed up from love, I didn't need the pain


 * So, Squirrelflight really wasn't there mother? Hollyleaf, Lionblaze, and Jayfeather's? Brilliant.


 * Once or twice was enough, and it was all in vain


 * You know, some cats would say I'm obsessed with Squirrelflight.


 * Time starts to pass, before ya know it you're frozen


 * I say they're right.


 * But somethin' happened for the very first time with you,
 * My heart melts into the ground, found somethin' true,
 * And everyone's lookin' 'round thinkin' I'm going crazy


 * I really love Squirrelflight, and it hurt me when she passed me up for that piece of fox dung, Brambleclaw. But maybe there's hope now....now that I know he isn't their father....


 * Maybe, maybe....
 * But I don't care what they say,
 * I'm in love with you,
 * They try to pull me away,
 * But they don't know the truth
 * My heart is crippled from the vein that I keep on closin',
 * You cut me open and I...


 * And some cats thing I should go mate with Whitewing.
 * Like I'd ever do that, she's too....you know....too good for me. I wouldn't want to ruin her. Besides, the only one for me is Squirrelflight. Of that, I'm sure.


 * Keep bleedin', I keep, keep bleedin' love
 * I keep bleedin', I keep, keep bleedin' love
 * Keep bleedin', keep, keep bleedin' love
 * You cut me open and I...


 * I turn around, and I see Squirrelflight. She looks embarrassed, and quickly turns her head away. I glance at Brambleclaw, who is a couple fox-lengths away. I smirk, yet he looks confused. Why would I smirk at him? Like he'd ever know.
 * I then look at Hollyleaf. She's whispering with Jayfeather and glaring at me. I'm sure she's gossiping about me. Though, I deserve it.


 * Tryin' hard not to hear, but they talk so loud...
 * Their piercing sounds, kill my ears,
 * Try to fill me with doubt,
 * Yet I know that the goal is to keep me from fallin'


 * I need to clear my thoughts. Yeah, I'll go out and hunt.
 * I crouch down, in front of a squirrel, wouldn't you know it? I kill it immediately, and see it's face.
 * It has the face of my love.


 * And nothin' greater than the rush that comes with your embrace,
 * And in this world of loneliness I see ya face,
 * Yet everyone around me thinks that I'm goin' crazy
 * Maybe, maybe


 * What's wrong with me? What, am I mad? I surely must be. I already know I am.


 * But I don't care what they say,
 * I'm in love with you,
 * They try to pull me away,
 * But they don't know the truth
 * My heart's crippled from the vein that I keep on closin',
 * You cut me open and I...


 * "Ashfur? Can we talk?"
 * I turn and I see the real Squirrelflight's face.
 * "There's nothing to say," I reply gruffly.
 * "There's everything to say."


 * I Keep bleedin', keep, keep bleedin' love
 * I keep bleedin', I keep, keep bleedin' love
 * Keep bleedin' keep keep bleedin' love
 * You cut me open...


 * "Please, Ashfur, don't tell! You don't know how much it would hurt Leaf-"
 * "Oh? Leafpool is the mother? Yipee." I say rudely.
 * Squirrelflight sighs. "I said too much. Listen, Ashfur. I did love you, but that's gone now. You know that."
 * "I was just your replacement. I don't care. I still love you, Squirrelflight. And I always will." With that, I turn away, and follow Thornclaw's scent to see him hunting.
 * To my surprise, he actually turns away from his vole to tell me something.
 * "She really hurt you, didn't she?"


 * And it's drainin' all of me,
 * Oh, they find it hard to believe
 * I'll be wearing these scars for everyone to see


 * "Yeah."
 * "I don't know why you love her anymore. I know it's hard to let go, but...."
 * That made me furious. I could feel the heat rush through my body. "What do you know? You've never had a mate."
 * He looks at me sadly. "If you think about it, neither have you."


 * I don't care what they say, I'm in love with you
 * They try to pull me away, but they don't know the truth
 * My heart's crippled from the vein that I keep on closin',
 * You cut me open and I...


 * I snarled, then dashed away, by a brook. I looked down into the water, and lapped it up. Why, StarClan? I love Squirrelflight, but why do I have to be obsessed with her?


 * Keep bleedin', keep, keep bleedin' love
 * I keep bleedin', I keep, keep bleedin' love


 * Suddenly, claws ripped into my stomach. I looked around frantically. I shockingly realized that Hollyleaf had crawled underneath me and ripped into my belly. I felt the blood pour from me....


 * Keep bleedin', keep, keep bleedin' love
 * Oh, you cut me open and I....
 * Keep bleedin', I keep, keep bleedin' love
 * I keep bleedin', keep, keep bleedin' love
 * Keep bleedin', keep, keep bleedin' love


 * Does love mean never having to say you're sorry? Yes. I'm not sorry I loved Squirrelflight. I'm happy I spent every moment with her.


 * Oh, oh-oh-oh-oh, yeah yeah...


 * And even though I already know the answer to this question....


 * Keep bleedin' love....


 * Does she feel sorry?