User blog:LyricsThatSing/I'm fine...

My whole life has been a complete lie.

Why do I cry? To express emotions? No, it's to show how weak and vulnerable I am.

At least, that's what I've been told recently. It was camp, again, when someone heard/saw me crying to sleep, and obviously confronted me about it.

'Cicely, stop faking with your darn depression. You have a choice to be happy. Your acting is horrible. You smile throughout the day, and say that you're depressed?'

Exactly.

I smile because ''I want you little dainty b!@#$es to keep away. I want to BLEND IN, I want to stay INVISIBLE.''

Okay, I do have a choice to be happy. Okay, I'll be happy from now on! I won't ever cry!

After you show me how to cure depression.

I'm also completely fine, thanks for being nice enough to ask!

And, I've been facing a lot of homophobia lately... name calling, public shaming.

THAT'S THE PROBLEM: IF YOU THINK I HAVE A CHOICE, GO TO A PSYCHOLOGIST TO GET MEDICINE TO CURE YOUR DEAD BRAIN FULL OF IDIOTICNESS.

But again, I CAN BE WHOEVER I WANT.

I'm fine...

I'm just about to break the bottle I've been keeping and storing away for ages.

The truth is everybody is     going to hurt you,     you just have to    find someone  worth suffering for