User blog:Birdpaw/Super Banana's

Okay silly title for semi-serious blog?

I mean, you got to get that potassium bro.

ANYWAYS BACK TO WHAT I wanted to say, which I'll cut up according to relevence.

Writing and Sads
Yeah, I'll admit it, I am absolutely forcing myself to write on my worst days (even on my best it's starting to become a huge chore), honestly, I know few people here /actually/ read what I put out (Well, depending on what it is your reading, I barely work on my show anymore, I'm on wattpad working on my sci-fi.)

Does that anger me? Noooo, honestly, sometimes some writings ain't for everybody, that I understand enough.

But, I mean, I struggle just as much as anybody, and as humans we do slightly crave that attention and acknowledgement (!!!Important actually) (Which surprise surprise, for the important times of my life, I didn't get due to reasons), I'm not the best writer, I'm probably just barely a good one, I don't know why I get so sad when I usually have the mentality of, 'It doesn't matter if no one is reading it, if you enjoy it, that's all you need'

Which don't get me wrong, I do definately enjoy it, as some people can probably attest too.

But I'd love it more if other people enjoyed it.

I want people to read my stuff, but it always makes me so nervous because I know some people's opinions of self-advertisement, including my own. (Also I had this conversation already, and tbh, even if you self-advertise, doesn't mean the person will /actually/ commit, I am guilty of this, and I'm sure we all said we'd do something and never did)

Honestly, at this rate I'd be fine with a 'heyy good job keep it up' which I never thought I'd say because those comments don't help you improve as a writer.

Moral support?

I constantly edit and rewrite in hopes that I'll maybe improve in some shape or form, at least enough that will make people to take a second look and see it?

I'm NOT an egotistical person, nor do I like self advertising (Honestly I want to cringe or vomit everytime I do something close to self-advertisement)

I was just raised that way I guess.

But it's like a domino effect, and lately people (not on here) have been giving me a giant headache and my temper has been on a short fuse.

I won't get into too much detail with what I have to deal with on a daily basis because meh nothing to discuss there.

Dreaded school
Well, not so dreaded, I'm kind of excited, but that's a whole new stressor on it's own and as one of the oldest people here, that's something I have to figure out myself.

Let's jsut say I'm doing something I don't actually want to do with my life, but again, people.

Anywayssss, kind of irrelevant blog, just wanted to get something off my chest and see what people say, eat your potassium.