User blog:RedPandaPotter/So...

So, well, I know I left in a flurry of anger and rant-y-ness that was (as pointed out by Zaffie) very immature. The thing is though, when you're upset, you don't think decisions through. You just want to distance yourself from things as far as possible, and that's what I did. I really do regret it though, and I guess I didn't mean it when I said that I'd be surprised if I came back - I mean, I am surprise that I was courageous enough to come back, because I know a lot of people will be talking behind my back about how I said I wasn't going to come back, and I left, twice, but you guys are my friends and I don't know how I could ever leave you all, because we're like a family, and families stick togetheer through thick and thin. (except I hope we're not a family, because then Arti would be the mom and with all of our new users, she would have to be pregnant a lot.)

Anyways, I'm coming back, if y'all still want me. It's really thanks to Forest and Arti; Forest for remembering that time I emailed her on that email account she has on her Contacts page on her profile and emailing me, leaving me with a bunch of fish puns that she promised Wetty she wouldn't use but still did, and not yelling at me for leaving, which really was quite nice. And Arti, for talking with me everytime I talked ot her on my own IRC channel, and not running away because I was being miserable and moping about how everyone on another site doens't care and blah blah blah, but I've taken a break from that website, so all is good over there. (I must say, it's quite nice to use italics in a post for a change. It's nicer to use instead of the / / to signify italics!)

Regardless, I've been going through a lot with friends at the moment (online, that is, but my real-life best friend broke her arm arm-wrestling some schmo. >.<), and I really need some people to talk to. Here you guys are, and a bunch of you have been with me from the beginning (*cough* Arti, Forest, Zaffie, Star [ even though she is gone, mind you, she's still a lurker ], Birchy, Wetty, Rainy, Nighty, excuse me if I forgot anyone!) and you guys know me the best. You're all so sweet and kind and it just makes me want to dissolve in a pit of flowers. That was really sappy, but I guess that's what reading The Mortal Instruments does to a girl (Clace. <3).

I think I'll be starting up some of my old fan fictions and I'll definitely want to re-apply on the Clans page. I hope I can still wrangle a position as a warrior and not an apprentice or anything, but if not, that's cool. I look forward to talking on the IRC with everyone again and integrating myself back into your community!

You guys are great. <3

I love y'all. *hug*

Truly,Madly,Crazy,Deeply in love with you 00:33, January 7, 2013 (UTC)

[ oh and if you ever happen to see Stareh on #wolfgame or anything, wish her congratulations. And ship Vareh. (Arti and Forest know what I mean, don't they? ;) ) ]